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#24 I used to be a Stalker š
Hereās why Iām thankful for it.
Good Day Brewers - Pang here! ā
I never thought Iāll be sharing this story.
Iām afraid.
Even ChatGPT thinks that stalking is universally viewed as negative and unacceptable behavior.
Will you judge me for being creepy?
Perhaps.
But before you do so, read on and decide before you drop your hammer of justice on me.
Because for once, Iām thankful I did something which society views in a negative light.

Estimated reading time: 2,356 words - 9 mins 54 seconds
Crush
When I was 15, my dad enrolled me in a tuition center to brush up on my Mandarin.
Why?
Because during my first semester in high school, I scored a D.
āDā wasnāt just a barely passing grade.
The word ādisgraceā also started with the letter āDā.
And thatās what I was to my dad.
Perhaps, this wouldnāt have been a big problem for my peers who have parents who were less into the traditional Chinese culture.
But my dad holds a strong traditional belief that every Chinese:
Should be able to speak fluent Mandarin
Should be able to write beautiful Chinese charactersāas if it was a form of art
Should possess the ancient wisdom of Confucius and the martial arts skills of Bruce Lee.
So there I was, seated in a small cozy classroom.
The walls were painted yellow. The whiteboard had random scribbles of numeric characters. The tables werenāt even neatly arranged. There were eraser shavings on each deskāremnants left behind by previous students.
āA messā was an understatement to describe that classroom.
It was the first lesson and I was early, so I watched the door of the classroom closely like a hawk eyeing its prey.
I could barely contain the curious cat within me.
Who am I going to meet this time?
Before I knew it, a whole bunch of teens had entered the classroom.
Two girls and seven guys, including me.
Our teacher, Miss Huang, was a lady who spoke in a strong thick Chinese accent.
She handed down the assignment books and started writing a few Chinese characters on the whiteboard.
Just before she could say a word, there was a knock on the door.
The cutest girl Iāve seen in my life stood at the doorway.
Yellow cropped top. White denim shorts. Long black hair. And eyebags as black and thick as a panda.
āTake a seat,ā said Ms. Huang, who was clearly annoyed at this studentās late arrival.
But I was pleased with the situation.
I simply couldnāt take my eyes off this girl. She was like an eye candy, or some would say, my crush.
Perhaps, Iād get my chance to get close to her.
But hereās the problem.
I donāt have the confidence to approach girls
And sheād always pick a corner seat in that room
So the only chance I thought I had was to make a nest in one corner of the classroom and pray that she chooses to sit beside me.
But that never happened. Whichever corner I sat in, sheād always pick the other corner, as if she was avoiding me intentionally.
This happened over the course of 11 lessons.
Weāre finally down to the last lesson in this tuition centerāmy last golden opportunity to see her.
Iāve decidedāthat Iād finally pick up the courage to talk to her.
I waited at the corner of the classroom, listening to Miss Huang ramble on non-stop about how to tackle our oral exams.
After what seemed like an eternity, it was just me in the classroom.
Everyone had left.
She did a no-show on that last lesson.
Could you imagine how defeated I felt?
I picked up my bag and paced towards the exit with heavy footsteps.
Just at that moment, I spotted the attendance sheet sitting on the teacherās desk.
There was one name on it without a signature for that dayās lesson.
Regine Estelle.*
A brilliant idea formed in my mind.
I was going to make Google work overtime for this.
As I type in her full name into the search bar, a list of results appeared.
Regine Estelleās Blog.
I clicked into it and was slapped with a bunch of stories written about her daily life.
I loved the way she expressed her feelings and journal about her day-to-day life.
That moment struck me like a bolt of lightning. It made me realize that I have always been seeking a canvas to paint my thoughts, reflections, and feelings.
Thatās when I decided to start my very own blog.
And thatās where it all began.
Since 2011, Iāve written a total of 278 posts.

Itās a compilation of:
My past reflections
My past experiences
My past reviews sharing my love for food and traveling
If I didnāt attempt to stalk that girl, I wouldnāt have come across Blogspot.
And that means:
I wouldnāt have started a blog.
I wouldnāt have fallen in love with writing.
I wouldnāt be this good at writing stories.
And I would have lost a whole bunch of memories and stories from the past!
So this brings me to the most important point of sharing this story:
You may have experiences in life that you arenāt proud of.
Perhaps, you may even regret some of these experiences.
But without them, you wouldnāt be where you are today.
Be grateful.
Your past experiences gave you valuable lessons.
Theyāre part of your journey called āLIFEā.
Embrace it. Cherish it. And live it to your fullest!
*Name has been changed to protect the identity of this individual.
How is this story even possible!?
Itās a story about a secret Iāve kept in my heart for the longest time.
I know tongues may wag.
You may even judge me for my actions.
But this story was possible because I admitted to my imperfections.
ā That Iām far from being a perfect human being.
I was a kid then.
I met this beautiful girl.
I wanted to find a way to contact her.
I stumbled onto her blog and read a few posts.
It made me realize that Iāve always been looking for a platform to write.
And so, my writing journey began.
āAt the HEART of this story, is a passionate writer that encourages you to share FLAWED versions of your past self.ā
Relatable Moments:
Youāre probably not a stalker like me, are you?
Even so, there are tons of relatable moments.
Can you spot them?
Stalking�
Writing on a blog.
Your first time journaling.
The need to attend tuition.
Having a crush on this beautiful girl.
The excitement of meeting new people.
Did any of these moments hit a spark?
How to craft a story about BEGINNINGS
At its core, this story isnāt about stalking.
Itās about beginnings.
Itās about going back into the past and digging up an important memoryāone that changed the trajectory of your life.
And trust me.
Youāll have one if you dig deep enough.
#1 - Hook
The first line of every story should drive curiosity.
How old were you then?
What happened?
When I was 15, my dad enrolled me in a tuition center to brush up on my Mandarin.
#2 - The Problem
Talk about the problem in this situation.
Donāt leave your readers hanging.
What is the context of this situation?
What is the problem here?
Where were you there?
Noticed how I added a little humor and sarcasm here by bringing in āBruce Leeā?
Why?
Because during my first semester in high school, I scored a D.
āDā wasnāt just a barely passing grade.
The word ādisgraceā also started with the letter āDā.
And thatās what I was to my dad.
Perhaps, this wouldnāt have been a big problem for my peers who have parents who were less into the traditional Chinese culture.
But my dad holds a strong traditional belief that every Chinese:
- Should be able to speak fluent Mandarin
- Should be able to write beautiful Chinese charactersāas if it was a form of art
- Should possess the ancient wisdom of Confucius and the martial arts skills of Bruce Lee.
#3 - Tension Building
To keep your readers hooked, youād have to drive curiosity.
Describe where you were.
What were you doing?
What is going on around you?
So there I was, seated in a small cozy classroom.
The walls were painted yellow. The whiteboard had random scribbles of numeric characters. The tables werenāt even neatly arranged. There were eraser shavings on each deskāremnants left behind by previous students.
āA messā was an understatement to describe that classroom.
It was the first lesson and I was early, so I watched the door of the classroom closely like a hawk eyeing its prey.
I could barely contain the curious cat within me.
Who am I going to meet this time?
Before I knew it, a whole bunch of teens had entered the classroom.
Two girls and seven guys, including me.
Our teacher, Miss Huang, was a lady who spoke in a strong thick Chinese accent.
She handed down the assignment books and started writing a few Chinese characters on the whiteboard.
Just before she could say a word, there was a knock on the door.
#4 - Meeting the āSTARā
The āSTARā here refers to someone youāve encountered that made an impact in your life.
Who is this person?
How did he or she show up in your life?
The cutest girl Iāve seen in my life stood at the doorway.
Yellow cropped top. White denim shorts. Long black hair. And eyebags as black and thick as a panda.
āTake a seat,ā said Ms. Huang, who was clearly annoyed at this studentās late arrival.
But I was pleased with the situation.
I simply couldnāt take my eyes off this girl. She was like an eye candy, or some would say, my crush.
Perhaps, Iād get my chance to get close to her.
#5 - Conflict
This is where the story gets juicy.
Whatās stopping you from getting to know your āSTARā?
What thoughts were going through your mind?
Did you make multiple attempts?
But hereās the problem.
- I donāt have the confidence to approach girls
- And sheād always pick a corner seat in that room
So the only chance I thought I had was to make a nest in one corner of the classroom and pray that she chooses to sit beside me.
But that never happened. Whichever corner I sat in, sheād always pick the other corner, as if she was avoiding me intentionally.
This happened over the course of 11 lessons.
Weāre finally down to the last lesson in this tuition centerāmy last golden opportunity to see her.
Iāve decidedāthat Iād finally pick up the courage to talk to her.
I waited at the corner of the classroom, listening to Miss Huang ramble on non-stop about how to tackle our oral exams.
After what seemed like an eternity, it was just me in the classroom.
Everyone had left.
She did a no-show on that last lesson.
Could you imagine how defeated I felt?
I picked up my bag and paced towards the exit with heavy footsteps.
#6 - Breakthrough
Getting to know your āSTARā is tough, but youāre not going to give up.
What is the final attempt you made here?
Did it work?
Or did something unexpected happened?
Just at that moment, I spotted the attendance sheet sitting on the teacherās desk.
There was one name on it without a signature for that dayās lesson.
Regine Estelle.
A brilliant idea formed in my mind.
I was going to make Google work overtime for this.
As I type in her full name into the search bar, a list of results appeared.
Regine Estelleās Blog.
#7 - Realization
This is the moment that triggered something within you.
What did you see?
Why did this moment matter?
I clicked into it and was slapped with a bunch of stories written about her daily life.
I loved the way she expressed her feelings and journal about her day-to-day life.
That moment struck me like a bolt of lightning. It made me realize that I have always been seeking a canvas to paint my thoughts, reflections, and feelings.
#8 - Transformation
Youāre feeling overwhelmed by what you just felt or saw.
Itās time for a change.
What did you do differently after?
How did that matter to you?
Whatās the biggest transformation that led you to where you are today?
Thatās when I decided to start my very own blog.
And thatās where it all began.
Since 2011, Iāve written a total of 278 posts.
Itās a compilation of:
- My past reflections
- My past experiences
- My past reviews sharing my love for food and traveling
If I didnāt attempt to stalk that girl, I wouldnāt have come across Blogspot.
And that means:
- I wouldnāt have started a blog.
- I wouldnāt have fallen in love with writing.
- I wouldnāt be this good at writing stories.
And I would have lost a whole bunch of memories and stories from the past!
#9 - Takeaway
Itās time to leave your audience with an important takeaway!
What did you learn from this?
How can you share them with your audience?
So this brings me to the most important point of sharing this story:
You may have experiences in life that you arenāt proud of.
Perhaps, you may even regret some of these experiences.
But without them, you wouldnāt be where you are today.
Be grateful.
Your past experiences gave you valuable lessons.
Theyāre part of your journey called āLIFEā.
Embrace it. Cherish it. And live it to your fullest!
How to craft a story about BEGINNINGS
ā #1 Hook
ā #2 The Problem
ā #3 Tension Building
ā #4 Meeting the āSTARā
ā #5 Conflict
ā #6 Breakthrough
ā #7 Realization
ā #8 Transformation
ā #9 Takeaway
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